Win me back [prp Hikaru]

I had not intended on trying to win kazuki back, that was not my intention when I came back as a language teacher. The new mature part of me actually wished for his happiness. I didn't want to mess with whatever he had created for himself in my absence but when I heard he'd become a summoner, that he'd given up his powers for the eidolon.. That he'd always be by his side, I found myself feeling jealousy burn within me. It was defiantly not the sort of feeling this more mature me should let myself be overtaken by but before I could rationalise with myself my feet were already taking me towards his office. I walked the same path I knew so well..' I just wanted to see him that'd be it', I tried convincing myself.

As I got closer I tried to think of what I might say, how I might act but before I could think of anything I was snapped out of my thoughts as I was told to get out of some guys way.. I hadn't seen him in the hallway and even if I was stuck in my thoughts for a moment the only place he could have come from was Kazuki's office. I knew he could have been another teacher, a student but something told me that this was him, that this was Kazuki's eidleon. My instincts wanted to take over and growl at him, pin him against a wall and threaten to tear his manlihood to pieces if he dared to hurt kazuki..or even just lay a single finger on him but instead I forced a smile, apologising softly and moved out of his way. It was then that my eyes locked onto familiar and yet foreign dark eyes.. He had changed even with my glasses slightly obscuring my vision I knew he hadn't just changed appearance wise...but who was I to talk? I was happy he recognised me at all, many of my old teachers had thought that I must have been someone with the same name.

"yes I'm the new language teacher, I travelled these past few years so I've learned quite a few"

I smiled as I explained walking into his office, trying to ignore the fact he seemed rather displeased to see my face once more. I had told myself seeing him once more would be okay but i found myself unable to comprehend why he had turned this way... Why his office felt so cold and clinical.. I didn't like the fact this had all happened when I wasn't looking, I was afraid that if I let him go now, ignored him and stopped watching him once more that the man I knew, I loved would completely disappear into an empty shell. So even though I knew I didn't have the right to I decided I would win him back at all costs.

"it's been so long I can't believe I'm sitting in this room again.. It's kind of nostalgic reminds me of when I was a student really.. Though it actually worries me a little that I might still be unprepared for the job, you know...so If you could give me some guidance I'd be grateful. That in mind I'd like to ask you to dinner tonight"

I spoke as I quickly formed a plan in my mind, I knew it was unfair but if I wasn't a little forceful here i was sure he'd say no or try to worm his way out of it. I leaned forward an lightly grabbed his hand, gently kissing it.

"I'll pick you up at seven"

I added before standing up and walking out the door before he could refuse.

I knew I had just done something impulsive, I'd have to get everything ready for tonight and there was no guarantee that he'd come with me. at this point I just had to stay optimistic, I'd get everything ready, I'd sweep him off his feet and perhaps I might be able to hear sweet words of love from his lips once more.

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Later that day as the time to see him got closer and closer I headed over to his room, knocking on the door. Unlike the old me who round have stood there in whatever was comfortable, I dressed nicely in a black suit. stand there outside his door I started to feel a strange feeling as I waited for him to open the door, nervousness?..perhaps. Though I didn't have to wait long at all before the door swung open.
I looked at my watch as he spoke of my ear lines only to realise he was right.. I hadn't even noticed.. But I rather end that I was early instead of late.

"oh.. You're right .. I must have just been so eager to see you"

I replied with a smile, it was true though I had been looking forward to my dinner with Kazuki. My eyes lightly shifted down from his face, looking at him from head to toe. I had only remembered him ever wearing traditional clothing.. This was defiantly something new and overall quite tempting, I was happy that I had my glasses on, I was happy I couldn't stare more intently at his figure because if I did I wasn't sure what I'd do.

"will you be okay with your skin exposed like that the night air can be quite chilly?"

I asked my voice filled with concern as my finger lightly brushed up against his bare stomach. I was truly concerned however not because of the night air but because everyone would be able to see his beautifully silky skin.

"I suppose it'll be okay, if you get cold just say so and I'll gladly lend you my jacket"

I smiled before reaching out and grasping his hand in my own.

"shall we go?"

I had first thought the night would go smoothly with his adorable reactions but soon enough it all turned sour and I had nothing to say to it because it had been true, I had always let my curiosity guide me. Even though it wasn't true now he was still entitled to hold that anger towards me after all I had put him through.
Silence overtook me for a while before we arrived at the restaurant, it was probably fancier than what was needed for a guidance conversation but I hadn't needed that conversation in the first place I just wanted some time with Kazuki. As we sat down I wanted to talk first to try and avoid unpleasantries but I was too late..

"I see, is that what you truly think of me?"

My eyes were downcast a moment as I spoke with a sad sort of smile, I had defiantly deserved those words but it still hurt. My eyes wondered up to Kazuki's and I couldn't help but ask myself, 'what was I doing?'. I had already hurt him so much and now I had already lied to him to bring him here all because I couldn't be happy for him, all because of my jealousy. I had thought I had changed but maybe I hadn't..

"I know that I hurt you and I don't expect to ever be forgiven.. So if you truly hate me and didn't want me to touch, speak or even see you again.. If that's what would make you happy even if it would be hard I'd do it but I just have to make something clear.. I didn't come back to prey on young men, I wouldn't jump on anyone just because I found them interesting. I don't do that anymore in fact the last time I even had sex was with you, and you were the only reason I came back."

I was glad he had wanted to see mei was glad that even though he couldn't forgive me right now there was hope and yet that happiness faded away as I heard those words, 'only my eidleon'. The image of the man in the hallway came to mind...so kazuki really cared for him? I was filled with conflicting emotions, I wanted him to be happy but I also didn't like it at the same time.

"gensono, summoner.. It doesn't matter kazuki is still kazuki..

I spoke as I watched him down his wine and I couldn't help but notice that it seemed to go straight to his head, it was so unlike the kazuki I knew... It made me think that there was probably many things that's were different from before it in the end as I said he was still fundamentally the same person, kind and adorable.
Dinner came and I found myself staring at him more than eating my food, so when he asked his questions my eyes narrowed slightly and I grabbed his hand before it could reach for a fifth glass of wine.

"Don't let anyone ever tell you your not good enough, you are truly the most beautiful, kind and loving person I've ever known. If anything you were too good for me, I really didn't deserve you I was childish and hurtful. I wanted to become a better person someone that deserved such love even if I knew that you might despise me, that my spot beside you could be taken, at the time I thought that as long as you were happy... But I was wrong I hate knowing I've been replaced."

Eh??? I was wrong? A sense of relief flowed through my body and I smiled gently as I lightly squeezed Kazuki's hand between my own, it was so warm, so soft, so gentle just like him.
My eyes widened for a moment slightly surprised to have the meat pressed up against my lips but I gladly let it in. What was more surprising though was the way he licked his lips, seducing me, I certainly would have fallen if not for my glasses helping me keep my restraint. In return I grabbed a cherry tomato off my plate and pressed it against his lips, my finger lightly brushing up against his soft lips as it went into his mouth.

"Silly.. Really silly.. There is no woman nor man who could take your place. You are the first and the last love I've ever known.

I took Kazuki's wine glass for myself before he could drink anymore and become anymore seductive than he already was. I didn't want him to do something he'd regret come tomorrow, a drumken night was not what I'd been aiming for.. I wanted to treat him properly this time.
Thinking that it was similar to an indirect kiss I blushed slightly as I took a mouthful of his wine.

"Really kazuki.. Is there anything I can do to prove to you my resolve? To win you back?"

He could give me a million exams without the answers and I'd do just fine afterall exams were logical, factual but love was complicated and unpredictable plus it didn't matter if I failed an exam or two but to fail at this... Well I suppose it was never meant to be easy, I'd just have to try and try until I succeed.

I felt his gentle touch as he smeared chocolate on my lips, it was that feeling of warmth that I probably had missed the most. In return I scooped up up a dob of whipped cream with my finger and plopped it onto the tip of his nose with a smile and a light laugh.
My tongue then lightly glided across my own lips in a somewhat sensual way as I removed the chocolate from my lips.

"I told you, you were the only love of my life ofcourse I'd miss you, miss waking up with you, miss your touch, miss your everything"

Once the meal was finished I paid the check and then stood up, walking behind kazuki I took my jacket off and draped it over his shoulders before offering him my hand.

"Shall we go for a walk the cool night air might sober you up a bit"

I actually couldn't suppress my a laughter when kazuki started to blame the ground for moving around on him. Felling his arm wrapped around mine, feeling him cling to me..it was comfortable, nice, it was a moment I wish had lasted longer as we reached the park bench. Only for a moment did I miss that warmth wrapped around my arm as he laid his head on my lap.

"No one can completely change everything they are but to me you were never weak, not now, not then... So don't seen yourself short"

I spoke as my hand begun to stroke his hair. Part of me was a little affected by his words, I hadn't imagined my disappearance would hurt him so.. At the time I had thought he'd have been better off without me but now it was obvious I had been stupid. My fingers stopped playing with his hair for a moment and moved to his rosy lips, lightly touching them with my fingertips I spoke in a low voice.

"I want to kiss you and one day I will.. When your sober.. When you truly want it"

I didn't want to kiss him now and yet I did yearn for those lips.. But it would just start with a kiss and then I was sure after that I'd lose all restraint and do much more. My fingers lingered on his lips perhaps a little to long before I smiled and lightly ruffled his hair.

"as for that.. Well it's true I'm silent and what not but it's really more natural instinct, it's not something I can really teach but as I said I did travel a lot in my years away learning different cultures and languages.. There was some really amazing things I'm sure you would have loved. I'd be glad to take you there one day...hmm actually now I think of it I could show you with an illusion if you like.

I didn't know if he hugged me on purpose but it felt nice, my own arms wrapped around his waist feeling the warmth radiate from his body. How I missed this and the sweet scent of his skin, it was so alluring and truth was no matter how more mature I become there wouldn't be a time where I could simply not feel the urge to make him mine but ow I could restrain myself and I would.
My fingers lightly combed through his hair, tucking some soft strands behind his ear I leaned in, my lips lightly brushing up against his ear as I whispered.

"I admit it. It was a date, it is a date and even if I'm a little more mature, a little different.. That cute student you feel in love with I'm still that person."

My hands wanted to roam down further but I wouldn't let them, instead I lightly squeezed kazuki in my arms, my head ending up resting against his shoulder. This man in my arms was so precious I would be a fool to let him go. I lightly whispered once more, my voice so low he might not have heard me say, I love you.
I knew I had been unfair all night, I knew I had used sweet words even if they were all true I knew what affect my words would've had... But I still couldn't stop myself from being unfair.

"it's not true.. Even now.. Even though I'm meant to be more mature I still want to hold you, to take advantage of you. I think any man would want that but I don't just want you I want your everything which is while I'll wait.
And yes I do have a room, I needed somewhere to put my luggage..if you want I'll show you... Even if you don't want to I'll still carry you back to the school"

I spoke, wrapping my arms around him tightly as I stood up. I began to carry him in my arms and while I did I finally gave him an illusion. It was of the amazon jungle, the sounds of birds, of running water filled the air. I showed him all the plants, waterfalls and beautiful things I had encounter leaving out the bugs, humidity and rough terrain which hiking through was tiring for even for a fox. The illusion only ended when we got back to the school.

I clenched my eyes shut, my fists went into a ball as I felt his tongue against my neck. It was such a sweet form of torture, not wanting to touch him not wanting to ruin anything but.. Kazuki was just being so alluring. It should have been illegal how sexy he was being.

"how could I say no?....just wait a moment"

I answered as I untangled myself from his arms. I had this strong urge to ravish him, to hold him until morning but I had promised I wouldn't, I promised I'd be mature and not take advantage. Argh... It was just so... I took a moment to quickly have a cold shower, to calm myself down and think it through.
I soon returned to kazuki wearing nothing but some blue pyjama bottoms and my glasses. My hair was still cold and damp as I crawled back onto the bed hovering over Kazuki's stomach I gently licked his exposed flesh.

"Did you get cold while you waited? I'll make sure to warm you up soon... But you know all night I was jealous that other guys got to see your sexy body so easily"

I was talking about his midriff shirt ofcourse, it had been silently driving me made that others could just stare. I licked his torso once more slowly sliding up his soft skin before sucking on it, leaving bright red marks so that he couldn't wear revealing clothes again unless he wanted to show everyone my mark.
I had decided that I wouldn't have sex with him, I wouldn't kiss him on the lips like I promised. I'd just make him feel good,make him feel the heights of pleasure then I'd let him sleep within my arms. I knew it would be hard to restrain myself but i thought I could do it.
My mouth moved from his torso down to his crotch where I lightly nudged, licked and teased him through his pants.

I was having my fun, teasing him through his pants making him feel good but I was too soon interrupted as he grabbed my hair, my eyes gazed up at him. I soon regretted I stopped as he began to remove his clothing even guiding me to remove his shirt... It w as too much, How could one man be so freaking sexy? Even though I had tried so hard to gather my resolve..he just made it so hard to say no. I wanted to spoil him, give him everything he desired, everything he asked for. So even if I wanted to protest the removal of my pants I couldn't help but smile at his words, my finger sliding underneath the rim of his underwear, slowly pulling them down, my lips kissing, his hip, the tip of his erection, his thigh, as I removed the white underwear out of my way.

"Kazuki.. I can't believe it but I think you're even more beautiful then I remember"

I spoke in awe before my mouth went back to teasing his crotch, this time directly as my tongu glided across his sensitive skin. I could taste the precum on his tip and I found myself even having missed this taste. I didn't take much time before I took his shaft into my mouth, pleasing him by sucking and coiling my tongue around his length as I took him further inside my mouth. My fingers lightly rubbed against the flesh of his entrance and I so badly wanted to be connected there but I wanted to keep my resolve I wanted such a night to be special unlike the night I took his virginity in the common room but my arousal was betraying me.

No it wasn't fair, not fair at all. As much as kazuki thought I had a way with words he just didn't understand how much his words could affect me. Maybe if I focused on his length I could just push his words away... No that wasn't possible. My lips left his shaft so I could face him, so I could talk but the look on his face just broke down the last strands of restraint I had left. The look of ecstasy upon his face was..erotically beautiful..

" so cruel...I tried so very hard to be good but I couldn't ever say no to you even though I feel like I shouldn't after you've been drinking...especially since I promised. Will you forgive me in the morning for indulging myself?"

I asked as my fingers lightly cupped his chin and that's when I broke my first promise to not kiss him until he was ready to forgive me. My lips touched his and I felt the guilt but that was easily overpowered by the warmth, the sweetness of his lips. Restraining myself was no longer an option, my fingers moved back down to his entrance, this time not only to give him pleasure but to prepare him as two finger slowly slid into the warmth of his intimacy where they began to move and stretch. To have Kazuki in my arms like this.. It was almost unbelievable.

[SO sorry, I have been really busy]

First, his eyes looked like he was a out to protest, but then it changed. Desire. Pure and powerful. Just the hunger in his eyes was enough to make me shiver. Then his lips pressed about mine. My hands tangled in his hair instantly. I held his face there as I pushed my tongue in his mouth to meet his own. As I kissed him with passion, I felt his fingers slipping inside me. The kiss broke and I gasped loudly, moaning at the same time. My eyes went to his then and I pulled his face closer again and licked his lips.

"Hikaru...nnnhhh...you know fingers just aren't enough..."

My hand reached for his shaft and when it felt the hot pulsating flesh, it curled around it and started stroking it at the same speed his fingers were moving inside me. I knew it was driving both of us crazy with pleasure. I also knew that the waves of increasingly mind numbing feeling was going to crash into us intensily. Before long, I had pulled him even closer to me and started licking his lips. I needed him.
Though I thought the feeling had been wiped away from my heart when Zhoutai became part of me, it seemed that Hikaru was still king in my heart. It felt as though he owned every cell in my body. And I loved the feeling. I wanted more of it.
I pulled Hikaru's hand away from my intimate hole and I turned around on my knees and I spread my butt cheeks open in front of him.

"I want you to hold me. I need to feel all of you against me."

The beast deep within was begging to be let out, it wanted to burst from my body and ravish Kazuki until he was completely spent of any and all energy. It was torturous to keep myself contained but at the least after breaking so many promises.. I wanted to be gentle, make him feel loved, precious but god help me did he know how to push my buttons. Not only did he have to cloud my judgement with the velvet smooth touches to my already painfully hard erection but he continued to push my resolve breaking everything in a matter of moments as he presented himself in front of me.. How could I keep the beast in?

"...don't blame me.. You beautiful.. Evil..sexy man"

I growled as I grabbed his hip, my fingers sinking deep into his silky smooth flesh. I couldn't stop the groans of ecstasy as I sheathed myself inside his inviting entrance. I had almost forgotten how good it was.. How could I ever leave something so painfully good.. So painfully addictive. It was like hot lava melting us together. I tried once more to be gentle to take my thrusts slow and aim for his most pleasurable spots but I couldn't stop myself from marking his complexion. Lightly biting the back of his his neck, everyone would know he was mine. I'd make sure that every bit of his body was covered in me, my mark, my scent.